I probably won't be on in a very very long time after my father comes home.
Because they're going to suffocate me; when it's my life and I'll do as a choose it's none of their business and their tedious and completely foolish attempts as for punishments at my own failure is bluntly..stupid.
So I'll go die in a corner I suppose and wait until a few years go by and leave.
I'll have nowhere to go of course, but whatever. Everything is for my own good, pshh; because I'm unintelligent and have no help from them when I fail to understand something academically they just swipe something away from me because they can't think of anything; because they don't understand the difficulty of MY WORK. Unlike whatever it was that they've forgotten in their past schooling.
Let's just watch Kira fail then.
And never get into a good school.
Or a college.
Or pass highschool.
With out a brief moment of thinking, maybe she doesn't do it because she doesn't know how? Or she's far too introverted to ask anyone for help besides the people that she lives with?
Noo, she does it because she doesn't care. Yes that's the belief they hold so dearly, Kira. Doesn't. Care. And failing is okay with her! She strives to fail and do incomplete things and never hand them in!
Because failing is a figment of the imagination apparently and believing in something is just a dream and can never be achieved. I can't believe; every time I do, I get knocked down and the dream slips out of my grasp again and again until I'm stuck there on the ground with nowhere else to go and nothing else to follow. It's just a fork in the road except both ways end up as a brick wall at the end and you end up smashing your face on the wall and wondering why you ever tried walking down that road in the first place. And by the time you realize there is no road that will take you anywhere, what else can you do but give up. The wall's too big to climb. Too heavy to knock down. No way around it.

Well I'm off; for awhile. I'll have my head bitten off because of my grades that I so dearly wanted and sit in my room in a pool of never-ending misery. OHYES; and die of swine flu! Or the more scientifically correct version H1N1 or H5N1 whatever the devil it is now w/e.
Sorry for the confusingly written rant!

-out for awhile
~MizzKiraaaaa